This will always break my heart.
When Willow was “Dark Willow”, she wasn’t herself anymore. She was even consciously putting a gap between her and her true self by talking about Willow at the third person.
But then, she talks about Tara. And she starts refering to herself at the first person again.
She thinks Willow is weak and too emotional, and right now, emotions are hurting way too much. So she prefers being mad at the world and seek revenge, so she won’t have to face what’s real.
Because being Dark Willow isn’t real. It’s surreal. What’s real is her pain. The hurting truth that Tara is gone.
Being angry. Wanting revenge. This is just a way for her to get away from reality. Get her mind and focus on something else than what has really happened.
But when she talks about Tara, she can’t pretend anymore. She’s unable to detach from herself. Thinking of Tara brings her back to reality.
But only briefly because being back to reality means being close to her feelings again. And she can’t stand it.
What is also breaking my heart is what she said in that brief moment when she was herself again.
Willow always had such a little opinion of herself. She thought that the only thing good about her was that she was with Tara. That Tara loved her. But still, she felt unworthy of Tara’s love. She thought that she wasn’t good enough for her. Hence thinking that if she ever stopped practicing magic, she would become ordinary again and Tara would stop loving her.
- badwolfcorporationuniverse likes this
- veni-vidi-vici-fangirling likes this
- veni-vidi-vici-fangirling reblogged this from miss-janet
- silence-through-red-ribbons reblogged this from miss-janet
- silence-through-red-ribbons likes this
- theelderwand2442 reblogged this from miss-janet
- xamor99 likes this
- sophie-in-the-tardis likes this
- drowningspiders reblogged this from miss-janet
- drowningspiders likes this
- soullessdhampir reblogged this from miss-janet
- someone-to-carry-you likes this
- warriorprincessking likes this
- warriorprincessking reblogged this from distracto-boy
- distracto-boy reblogged this from miss-janet
- liz-mayes reblogged this from miss-janet
- blondewiccan likes this
- behindbluebirds reblogged this from miss-janet
- maxxiepadx3 reblogged this from miss-janet
- maxxiepadx3 likes this
- joghurtbrot likes this
- tavarnarmo reblogged this from miss-janet
- horizontal-twist likes this
- theedgeofmediocrity likes this
- strictly-stickly likes this
- dinosaursattheprom likes this
- chris-is-a-nerd likes this
- kiss-my-assbutt reblogged this from hyperbeeb
- hyperbeeb reblogged this from kiss-my-assbutt
- misstwinpeaks likes this
- tab-riss likes this
- breathlikeghosts reblogged this from miss-janet
- festivaloftheoppressed likes this
- anewfoundconsciousness likes this
- achildssong reblogged this from miss-janet
- emokitty1994 reblogged this from miss-janet
- emokitty1994 likes this
- witchofmanynames likes this
- writerwithadashofdork likes this
- fearliath likes this
- this-is-a-gift likes this
- youcanstillcatchmedancinginit reblogged this from margflower
- layback11 reblogged this from miss-janet and added:
- layback11 likes this
- bullseyespankem likes this
- margflower reblogged this from miss-janet
- eyes-of-tei likes this
- slackjawedyokel reblogged this from miss-janet